only if she knew

in the early blog, i talked about me likeing someone. well i dont really know if she likes me back,  this is kinda sad to say but i have never had a girlfreind before and i have no idea what it is like to hold someone or kiss someone you actually love. laugh all you want but if you are in my shoes i like you would understand.  only if she knew, only if she knew i like her alot, so much i want to spend the rest or my life with. i know this may sound kinda corny or something off of a movie, but its the way i feel.