only if she knew

in the early blog, i talked about me likeing someone. well i dont really know if she likes me back,  this is kinda sad to say but i have never had a girlfreind before and i have no idea what it is like to hold someone or kiss someone you actually love. laugh all you want but if you are in my shoes i like you would understand.  only if she knew, only if she knew i like her alot, so much i want to spend the rest or my life with. i know this may sound kinda corny or something off of a movie, but its the way i feel.

depressing

i have no idea whats going on it seems that academic teaches, it’s like all of m teachers are shocked to hear that i was in applied last year. only one teacher said we should talk about this, out of FOUR….i am also having regrets in all my subjects maybe i belong in applied maybe i wasnt supposed to successful in my future career or life. right now i am at school typing this artical, when i got the news yesterday i failed miserably on a math test. i got 23% not a pass or course but, its better what some people got. i know this kinda sounds kinda silly but maybe i’m right maybe, just maybe.